On making choices

Ever since I obtained a full consciousness about my making decision, I realized that no human is actually free.
I mean, sure yeah you are free to choose how you want to live your life, but you are never free from the consequences of your choices.

Like, it is fine if you decide to sit around and be a couch potato all week, but then you'll be prone to horrible backpain.
That's a simpler sample.
But even with choosing the type of work you want to do, the circle of friends you surround yourself with, life partner (or no life partner), where you live, everything has its own prize (and consequences).

And that is even more complicated once you put society into the equation.

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One of my most memorable scenes from a movie is from Yuni.
When Yuni, a high-schooler from a very conservative village, was forced to marry his teacher and she contemplated to runaway from her wedding.

When she was caught, her dad did not stop her, he only said something like she could flee, but it is going to be a tough life out there. 

Everything is going to be overwhelming, like a fish trying to swim against the current.

But she left anyway. Maybe because she knows the current flows to a place she resents.

At least the unknown is still unknown.

I have to say that having a privilege of having lived in multiple different cities, each with its own unique demography, taught me that you can never be universally good.

Depending on where you are, so many things are perceived differently.

In a weird way it really calms me. It made me feel like if someone messed up, they can always start over somewhere.

Somewhere, somehow there will be a place they belong. And some will be lucky to find them in this lifetime.