Impatience
It was an odd evening.
It was the first week of Ramadan, my first Ramadan away from home.
I got invited to join a trivia quiz with a group of friends, most of whom I barely knew well.
I made a plan to go there with a fellow muslim friend and decided to walk from my apartment.
At 8.10 PM we broke our fast quickly, and walked to the cafe.
The quiz went for about 2.5 hours and we got the 7th rank out of 17 teams although I did not contribute much to the score. But I got a great time lol.
On my walk home, I just realized I never had a proper conversation with this person despite him being in the same room with me most days of the week. And so I asked him: how has it been for you, 3 months in the Netherlands?
I was expecting a light response, probably he'd just complain about the weather or the foods, or maybe he'd be happy to live in this town, idk. Just something light.
But it was not.
He told me he went through one of the heaviest things in his life last month but he's grateful, he continued to explain his situation without telling me what the problem was.
He just assumed I knew, since it was 'the talk of the town'.
I was confused. I kind of felt my eyes rolling since I had no idea what he was talking about.
I tried to stop him from talking since I kinda felt like it was hurtful for him to do so, and also I hate explaining myself and I assumed he did too.
It felt odd to hear someone I didn't know very well trying so hard to explain how he was not wrong, and that it was all lie, whatever I heard.
Even more odd, the first sentence that came out of my mouth was "sometimes Allah gave you something you hate but it's actually good for you, vice versa"
He was laughing.
He responded "You know, it's true, He said it himself. He also told us that human beings were born impatient. We have impatience in our blood, we always get upset when things don't go our way but we never really give enough time for the real result to prevail".
After he said that I felt like the world went silent. It's probably an exaggeration but I had been going through a mental roller-coaster for quite some time.
And when he said that, it's like the machine turned off.
That was just the thing I needed to hear:
Human beings are born impatient.
Huh, who would've thought that 5 euro entrance fee to join a trivia quiz at a local diner would end up in a free therapy.
What an odd evening.


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