The Best Time of Our Lives?

Monday, June 02, 2014

The Best Time of Our Lives?

High School.
Too many words to explain the two words.
And now that I should say good bye. And it's not easy. And strange.
Right now, it does feel weird for me to say that I'm a university student, or in Indonesian, Mahasiswa.
But.. Do I want to go back and have another year in highschool? Yes.. or.. no? idk.
Okay, so I'll share my long opinion about it.

It all started in 2011.
I went to the orientation and it all felt amazing. I used to think that being highschooler is cool as pole.
I met those new people. I barely knew them. But eventually, they all mean something.
Some people are verrryyy meaningful, some other mean a little lot, some other mean a little, and there are also some people we just can't ever forget.
The funny thing about the first meeting is that you have no idea what would happen with you & those people in the future.
Some people will only be your school-mates.
Some people will be your class-mates.
Some people will be your mates.
Some people will knock you down till the lowest point of your life.
Some people will give you some sleepless nights, thinking about how to be happy.
Some people will make you be thankful of what you have while another ones will make you drown in jealousy.
Some people will make your morning feels like hell.
Some people will make your pillow wet every single night.
Some people will make you curse everything in front of you.
Some people will cheer you up in your dark times.
Some people will teach you precious lessons you can't get in other places.
Some people will make you be impatient to have another day of school.
Some people will make you laugh till your tummy aches.
Some people or maybe... someone? will get you smile just by saying hello.
Some people or maybe... someone? will give you that butterfly sensation in your tummy everytime they pass by.
And many many manyy more.
I once thought that high school is an extremely fun place.
But I was wrong! Or... was I right? idk.
All I know now is that high school shows me life. Cause all I see in my earlier life are rainbow and butterfly.
I don't know about yours but my high school time is like Sumatera Bagian Timur (Iya bro, banyak naek turunnya).
But it gave me life. Life is not life if it's flat as a piece of paper.
I've shed many tears. I've released many angers. I've laughed till I cry. I've smiled till my teeth dry.
I've been sorry till I don't know what to do. I've been loud. I've been quiet (wait.. have I ever been quiet?).
I could laugh till I forgot how to cry, but then I cried the next day.
I could cry till I felt very tiny, but then I laughed the next day.
It was very full of stuffs and utterly unpredictable.
Many people say that high school is a place where people will be someone they once said they'd never be.
Is it right? Yes, it may be right. But that's a part of growing up.
You judge things and speak as if you knew it all. But then you'll learn and you realize that it's not like what you thought. Then you change.
Is it bad? Yes, it may be bad. But you're not a human if you never make mistakes, right?
And hoping people to be perfect is tiring and strange (well, at least to me).
And also, for me high school is kinda complicated.
It's a place where bunch of kids learning to be adults.
They act like a pro when they barely understand things.
They get many pressures to be this, to be that, when they were only kids before.
They go crazy and clueless about future.
Some of them stuck. Some of them pass that easily.
But remember, growing up is hard for literally, e v e r y o n e.
The best/worst (depends on how you see it) about high school is that you can't forget it.
You can't forget how it's like to finally meet friends who suit(?) you.
You can't forget how it feels when that one person happy with another person instead of you.
You can't forget how it's like to be under many pressures for the first time.
You can't forget how embarrassing you've ever been.
You can't forget how stupid you've been.
You can't forget those unstable emotions.
You can't forget the tears you've shed.
You can't forget the betrayal.
You can't forget the tummy-aching laughter.
You can't forget the endless smile.
You can't forget the hilarious moment.
You can't forget many things.
And though you can't forget the disappointments and heartbreaks, remember that we all are learning in high school. Everybody makes mistakes, so do you.
Try to forgive and be someone big.
Forgive that one person who got you crying to sleep.
Forgive that one person who left you for someone else.
Forgive that one person who made you feel good and left you eventually.
Forgive that one person who got what you wished you had gotten.
Forgive that one person who made you feel small.
Forgive that one person who disappointed you.
Forgive that one person who screwed your plans.
Forgive all bad stuffs. Cause shouldn't high school teach us something in the end?
The real battlefield is outside. Cause I think, after that, life is pretty much like high school but with larger scale, and higher price to pay.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't it?
To me, those bad stuffs show you yourself. They show you your real friends. They show you things that matter. They show you how to handle stuffs. Et cetera.
The lessons are worth the struggle though.

Back to the title.
Is high school the best time of our lives?
You decide.
But to me, it is the best time of my life so far.
But seriously, I don't feel like I want it to be the best time of my life.
I want a better future, better times ahead, right?

Jadi...
Selamat tinggal?